Automutilation

I take a piece of glass and scratch it on my arm
Ah, I see the blood flow, I have to do some harm
I hate myself for doing this, but I love (want) to feel the pain
I have to do this punishment, the blood is like red rain
Last night I was so hungry that I took some food
Because I weigh too much, that sure ain't no good

I have to keep on hurting, I feel constrained
No-one to know about me, no-one to have me retained
This is my little secret, something I will never confess
Not to be discovered puts me under lots of stress
I have to loose lots of weight, I have to be lean
My body is crying loud for food, but I am so mean

Chorus:
My figure is improving, but still it's not the best
For me it's disapproving so I take care of the rest
When I take some food, I force myself to vomit
To this good?! behaviour I have to submit

Spoken:
Nobody to choose her side
No-one there to make her subside
You must prevail her to stop these crazy dreams
Otherwise she'll die, at least that's how it seems

Oh, I feel relieved after losing all my food